Comments for twolimeleaves http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com is it morning already? Mon, 21 Dec 2009 17:42:37 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 Comment on The Mothers Whose Children Have Died Club by sandy http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7255 sandy Mon, 21 Dec 2009 17:42:37 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7255 hello this is sandy i never did this before mydaugther died when she was 13 i cant get over it and it was in 97 she's 26 now i miss her soooooo dam bad the crying never stop;s what can i do i love her so much i need help i need her back ' i need too hold her how do i let her go .........a mommy who is dieing a little everday....... hello this is sandy i never did this before mydaugther died when she was 13 i cant get over it and it was in 97 she’s 26 now i miss her soooooo dam bad the crying never stop;s what can i do i love her so much i need help i need her back ‘ i need too hold her how do i let her go ………a mommy who is dieing a little everday…….

]]> Comment on twolimeleaves isn’t my name any more by Wayne http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/about/#comment-7252 Wayne Wed, 28 Oct 2009 00:07:47 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/about/#comment-7252 Hello, Do you have that gunfight at the OK corral fabric anymore? Hello, Do you have that gunfight at the OK corral fabric anymore?

]]> Comment on The Mothers Whose Children Have Died Club by Denise http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7250 Denise Wed, 07 Oct 2009 17:40:25 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7250 I just lost my beautiful daughter of 33 years to a car accident - she did not survive. Married for 7 months and a whole great life ahead of her she was taken away. People don't know the hurt and pain we, the family feel, but I do have a question. As a parent would you say the pain you feel versus the pain a son(daughter)in-law might feel is different? I just lost my beautiful daughter of 33 years to a car accident – she did not survive. Married for 7 months and a whole great life ahead of her she was taken away. People don’t know the hurt and pain we, the family feel, but I do have a question. As a parent would you say the pain you feel versus the pain a son(daughter)in-law might feel is different?

]]> Comment on The Mothers Whose Children Have Died Club by karma http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7248 karma Thu, 10 Sep 2009 19:32:28 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7248 I am just so truly Thankful for having such a nice site to go to that lets us interact with so many of women (and men?) who are suffering a loss and are able to support each other. It is just so reassuring to know that I am understood and I am not judged or compared to a loss being greater or less than, be it a pet, or child! I have not begun to let go, or even let myself cry for that matter, I want to know "WHY" and is something "wrong" with me that I do not or cannot bring or let myself cry. Enough of THAT! I was wanting to THANK ALL for participating in making this the wonderful site that it is and for whoever got it started just a great big "GOD BLESS YOU!" I am just so truly Thankful for having such a nice
site to go to that lets us interact with so many of
women (and men?) who are suffering a loss and
are able to support each other. It is just so reassuring to know that I am understood and I am
not judged or compared to a loss being greater or less than, be it a pet, or child! I have not begun to let go, or even let myself cry for that matter, I
want to know “WHY” and is something “wrong” with me that I do not or cannot bring or let myself
cry. Enough of THAT! I was wanting to THANK ALL for participating in making this the wonderful
site that it is and for whoever got it started just a
great big “GOD BLESS YOU!”

]]> Comment on The Mothers Whose Children Have Died Club by karma http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7247 karma Thu, 10 Sep 2009 19:19:57 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7247 Barbara Jones,-- Thank You for telling it like it is!! I too, have been walking around with a hole in my heart, but for me I have been hiding my pain or denying that their deaths are my SAD,PAINFUL, realilty and not dealing with it head on. Ya know?! Avoiding it completely as if it never even happened! Detouring from the subject at all cost! Holding,fighting back my tears so no one can or will see,know my pain and hurt inside! I also know that the pain I have I want to be selfish with. Like I don't want anyone to comfort me or make it go away,like in a sad, scary way, can you understand? Or does it make any sense to anyone? It's like my PAIN is the only thing I have left to connect me to them maybe. Could that be possible!? But, I just wanted to Thank you for saying what I been trying to say for a very long time and I need help in dealing with my avoidance of my pain. I don't want to feel the pain, and crying will make me feel and remember it!! More than ANYTHING though is the horrible feeling of the TREMENDOUS,OVERWHELMING, PARALYZING GUILT I have for "leaving" my children at such an early age in their little fragile lives. You see, I was born with alcohol in my blood, my mother was an alcoholic and drank with me while pregnant with me, and I drank alcohol since I was 15-50 yrs. old!! So in all this maddening lilfetime of alcoholism, I not once, ever thought,by leaving my marriage I would affect my babies in such a regretful painful way a MOTHER could ever have ! Ialso feel IT so very hard to come to FORGIVE myself for such a HORRIBLE and such a SELFISH thing to do! At age 18,I knew nothihng of marriage muchless raising a baby! And with alcohol the main focus in my life at that time, I didnot know the consequences of my drinking and self-centeredness I obviously felt,at the early age of 18-19,I never thought my babies would EVER do such a DREADFUL, HORRIBLE, SHOCKING thing such as SUICIDE!! Of course had I known this, I would have NEVER EVER made such a selfish, self-centered choice as I did!! But I cannot go back to the past and do anything over or change anything even though I would do so immediately. Just Thank you so much for being there for me and not judging me, as I do myself!! Please reply! I need some help and I hope I have opened up someones elses pain to become honest with their reality as well. BLESS YOU EVERY STEP OF YOUR JOURNEY ALWAYS, KARMA Barbara Jones,– Thank You for telling it like it is!! I too, have been walking around with a hole in my heart, but for me I have been hiding my pain or denying that their deaths are my SAD,PAINFUL, realilty and not dealing with it
head on. Ya know?! Avoiding it completely as if it never even happened! Detouring from the subject at all cost! Holding,fighting back my tears so no one
can or will see,know my pain and hurt inside! I also know that the pain I have I want to be selfish with. Like I don’t want anyone to comfort me or make it go away,like in a sad, scary way, can you understand? Or does it make any sense
to anyone? It’s like my PAIN is the only thing I have left to connect me to them
maybe. Could that be possible!? But, I just wanted to Thank you for saying what I been trying to say for a very long time and I need help in dealing with my avoidance of my pain. I don’t want to feel the pain, and crying will make me
feel and remember it!! More than ANYTHING though is the horrible feeling of the TREMENDOUS,OVERWHELMING, PARALYZING GUILT I have for “leaving” my
children at such an early age in their little fragile lives. You see, I was born with
alcohol in my blood, my mother was an alcoholic and drank with me while pregnant with me, and I drank alcohol since I was 15-50 yrs. old!! So in all this
maddening lilfetime of alcoholism, I not once, ever thought,by leaving my marriage I would affect my babies in such a regretful painful way a MOTHER could ever have ! Ialso feel IT so very hard to come to FORGIVE myself for such a HORRIBLE and such a SELFISH thing to do! At age 18,I knew nothihng of marriage muchless raising a baby! And with alcohol the main focus in my life at that time, I didnot know the consequences of my drinking and self-centeredness I obviously felt,at the early age of 18-19,I never thought my babies would EVER do such a DREADFUL, HORRIBLE, SHOCKING thing such as SUICIDE!! Of course had I known this, I would have NEVER EVER made such a selfish, self-centered choice as I did!! But I cannot go back to the past and do anything over or change anything even though I would do so immediately. Just Thank you so much for being there for me and not judging me, as I do myself!! Please reply! I need some help and I hope I have opened up someones elses pain to become honest with their reality as well.
BLESS YOU EVERY STEP OF YOUR JOURNEY
ALWAYS,
KARMA

]]> Comment on The Mothers Whose Children Have Died Club by cyndee http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7246 cyndee Thu, 03 Sep 2009 03:35:27 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7246 Stephanie - I, too lost my daughter Samantha, to an auto accident. She was 20. It seemed her entire life was still ahead of her. She was intelligent, very talented and very beautiful. (I guess all Moms think that way.) She suffered severe brain trauma, and the intensity of her injury prevented her from returning to us. We hoped we could let her exits in a vegetative state, yet she had no core reflexes or responses, and we had no choice but to let her go. My stockpile of memories of those couple weeks in the hospital haunt me, as Samantha does. I feel like a little rubber ducky lost at sea, big waves and all. I hope you've found some piece of mind, and that your life has become acceptable - and I hope that for all Moms, and myself as well. God Bless You. Stephanie – I, too lost my daughter Samantha, to an auto accident. She was 20. It seemed her entire life was still ahead of her. She was intelligent, very talented and very beautiful. (I guess all Moms think that way.) She suffered severe brain trauma, and the intensity of her injury prevented her from returning to us. We hoped we could let her exits in a vegetative state, yet she had no core reflexes or responses, and we had no choice but to let her go. My stockpile of memories of those couple weeks in the hospital haunt me, as Samantha does. I feel like a little rubber ducky lost at sea, big waves and all. I hope you’ve found some piece of mind, and that your life has become acceptable – and I hope that for all Moms, and myself as well. God Bless You.

]]> Comment on The Mothers Whose Children Have Died Club by cyndee http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7245 cyndee Thu, 03 Sep 2009 03:24:48 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7245 I appreciate that there is a site to look at and read that identifies with me. My daughter passed on 8/12, and I don't know how to carry on. That you wrote of celebration, family and parallel universes is so very true. Thank you for making this site real, and the grief and pain are also so real. Feel free to respond to me, perhaps you have any insight that may be helpful. God Bless You and All Parents. I appreciate that there is a site to look at and read that identifies with me. My daughter passed on 8/12, and I don’t know how to carry on. That you wrote of celebration, family and parallel universes is so very true. Thank you for making this site real, and the grief and pain are also so real. Feel free to respond to me, perhaps you have any insight that may be helpful. God Bless You and All Parents.

]]> Comment on The Mothers Whose Children Have Died Club by karma http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7244 karma Thu, 03 Sep 2009 02:49:58 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2007/11/13/the-mothers-whose-children-have-died-club/#comment-7244 Hi! I have been trying to find some kind (any kind) of support as my oldest son has committed suicide,then I found out too, that his brother had been shot,at first they said he too committed suicide,then found out he'd been shot. I can remember saying and thinking to myself and saying outloud one time "I don't know what I'd do if I found out one of my children were badly hurt or had died!" I said,"I don't think I could handle it. I'd probably go crazy!" Well, it has happened and I feel numb,I can't seem to cry,or even bring myself to think of it or talk about it, only with one-on-one sessions,which are few and far between. I hope I am making sense, because right now I've lost track of what my message was to be for this reply, Forgive Me for getting lost in myself! CONFUSED,SAD, LOST,AND STUCK in bellevue. Thank you for this wonderful site!!!!! Hi! I have been trying to find some kind (any kind) of support as my oldest son has committed suicide,then I found out too, that his brother had been shot,at first they said he too committed suicide,then found out he’d been shot. I can remember saying and thinking to myself and saying outloud one time “I don’t know what I’d do if I found out one of my children were badly hurt or had died!”
I said,”I don’t think I could handle it. I’d probably go crazy!” Well, it has happened and I feel numb,I can’t seem to cry,or even bring myself to think of it
or talk about it, only with one-on-one sessions,which are few and far between. I hope I am making sense, because right now I’ve lost track of what my message was to be for this reply, Forgive Me for getting lost in myself! CONFUSED,SAD, LOST,AND STUCK in bellevue. Thank you for this wonderful site!!!!!

]]> Comment on Best Lemon Muffin Recipe by pompomrouge http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2006/09/09/best-lemon-muffin-recipe/#comment-7240 pompomrouge Fri, 24 Jul 2009 07:05:36 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2006/09/09/best-lemon-muffin-recipe/#comment-7240 Hi Rob I guess it's horses for courses, hey? I'm no cook but I can make these and we just love them. Hi Rob
I guess it’s horses for courses, hey? I’m no cook but I can make these and we just love them.

]]> Comment on Best Lemon Muffin Recipe by Rob http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2006/09/09/best-lemon-muffin-recipe/#comment-7238 Rob Sat, 18 Jul 2009 09:26:39 +0000 http://twolimeleaves.wordpress.com/2006/09/09/best-lemon-muffin-recipe/#comment-7238 OMG, are you guys for real????!!! just made and ate one and I feel like killing my cat. They where so stogy and I recommend something a bit more morst with more lemon zest and juice. Dont cut corners here guys! Rob OMG, are you guys for real????!!! just made and ate one and I feel like killing my cat. They where so stogy and I recommend something a bit more morst with more lemon zest and juice.

Dont cut corners here guys!

Rob

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